yet another day has gone by. lets see i sat in class all day. though i felt kinda good becuase i knew most of the words they threw at me. which is a good sign my improvement is coming along and i may make it threw through this course after all. we shall see next march. well im trying to turn over a knew leaf now i become more mature in a way. im going to go to the gym everyday and study alot more than i do. which should improve my language skills alot and i may just get up there with the top people of my class from starting this course with the worst. actually i was the worst besides one guy but he got out and i was left to be the worst. still have the worst gpa in my class (1.9 shhh dont tell no one) but im in the middle part of my class as in the way of skill. so that is good. im not looking to graduate with honors. things do seem to be coming up in my life even with the couple potholes i've run over recently. oh well. you know this is actually somewhat fun displaying my life on the internet. i guess that be enough of me for today must study the arabia.

ben

hey happy easter everyone!! ok enough of the fake cheerfulness. today sucked for one i was depressed at the fact that i wasn't hope celebrating with my family. another thing im not going to talk about all im going to say is the whoever created religion sucks because it divides people and destroys lives. im sorry for offending anyone but to me it's all i big lie and churches take up space. there's is my anti-religion statement of my life. no more from my mouth because im trying to be a good athiest and respect other peoples choice to waste away whatever time they worship. for those of you who are idiots. religion is what has pissed me off today. i dont like talking about it because i dont like offending others and i just dont like thinking about it because for me it is unfathomable. now that i got that off my chest i just may be able to sleep we shall see. night

well...hmmm... i never really thought i would do one of these because i just thought it was stupid. but now i have decided it may be a good way to talk about things to myself, though other people would be able to see. you get me. its kinda of like talking in your sleep. which recently i found out i do sometimes, this is quite odd. even stranger i say things in arabic. well then...yep... its like a real conversation with akward pauses and all. okay im going to go now because this relationship is going too fast too soon.